Testo Dog Days

here she can be still , rest her eyes
the same way shes done a thousand times
she can lose herself to her head
and count the sheep, count to ten
she knows how restless she can be
about the creaking floors
that chime all night relentlessly
reminding her the day is done the knots and loops we tie at night
to free ourselves at morning light
I never want to wait again
terminal, I'm at a loss
I never want to wait again
not a second, not to pause
our best attempt to guard against
slowly creeping pass of time
now a fleeting delusion of mine
but I tried
to slow it all to a glacial pace
to numb it all, stay comatose
to slow it all to a glacial pace
but I tried, but I tried
you're a fool if you honestly think you have say in what you believe
you're set in stone
you're skin and bones
and you're all you'll ever be
all you'll ever be
as we wake up different people each day
I still can't figure out what has changed
you said “you were wrong to look for that in me”
“you asked of me something that I could never be”
and the bitterness, it pools and drowns out my thoughts
when I'm aching for a second, just to pause
when every spark of inspiration is second best
you wrote to me “life is still beautiful nonetheless”