Testo Damage Done

No stone can turn to show my past
forever hidden one sided pain of glass
only i can see the truth and the facts
no one else would be able to follow these tracks
though not the worst it has done its dues
in the back of my head trouble insues
like a storm damage has been done
the smoke screens the light from the sun darkness is the costume for what could be free
clear the smoke and undress it and you will find me
ill be quiet but smile and laugh and joke
unknown the quietness represents the part that was broke
broken beyond repair but i have no doubt
in my family and friends ill find my way out
regrets are within all everyone has their sins
only the lord can forgive us based on our actions
regrets are only excuses made to hide deep feelings
because at one time it was wanted and had true meaning
i don\'t wish upon a star
i dream of my life from a far
to think of what could have been and what it is today
its a true blessing to be able to live this way
no one will ever know exactly what i think and feel its my choice to hold it in maybe i dont want it to be real
but its my one piece of the past i dont want to let go
the deepest secret pain that i can\'t let show
tears can\'t even carry the burdens of my thoughts
nor can the years withhold the moments that i\'ve lost
i\'m not sure if i should but i guess i\'ll reveal
all these emotions that i constantly feel
mom, dad, bro, sis i\'m hurting and i need you
you alll had to abandon me and leave me in the rear view
just a baby of two years left without a family
handed over to some strangers how could this ever happen to me
scott, kim, susan, and derek
i was the glow in your lives that turned out to be a wreck
i know you loved me but you loved those evils more
and those evils have permenantly left me sore
from a happy home with me
to a jail cell with nobody
i have lost my first memories due to your decisions
im only left with my thoughts and my visions
gave me up because you were sick
such as strong illness not even your son you would miss
these demons took over and brought you to your knees
you had to surrender it was your son that they seized
but enough of the questions and the sorrow
the past is the past and i live for tomorrow
i know that we will meet again down the road
the hole in my heart will eventually be sowed
but until then i have my family and friends
they are the ones i have til the end
my love for them is never ending and complete
they give my heart that one extra beat
before i leave i just want you to know
i do love you and the future is our time to show