Testo Sky Watching

The first time I really thought about death was in the bathroom of a grocery store. I realized that what really makes me scared is if it comes and I'm unprepared. I watch the sky as it falls on my windshield. I feel a change I can't explain. I wonder if it's real. I don't want to hear a voice in my head asking, "did I make the best of the time I had?" Saying, "what do you have to show for this?"