Testo To Survive

Loss into this body born
Filling fathoms in me
What is witnessed can never be drawn
Drawn up from the deep

Smart since the day I arrived
Smarter since I got born
Cast out for who I am All my feathers and flesh

I did what I did to survive
Building with mortar all around me
As long as I feel, I’m alive
Whatever it is

My body a vessel for them
Trade for security
Broken wings, no longer in flight
Still wrapped around me

I did what I did to survive
Building with mortar all around me
As long as I feel I’m alive Whatever it is

Medicated to mitigate it
Fuck it, eat it, steal it, break it
Animated, compensated
With alcohol and with MDMA

Body broken, corrugated
Any worth reflected in it
Cannot leave and cannot lean in
Your loving gaze too intimate