Testo Leave Me Alone

Crown Jewel
Look
Whatever happened to you back then
Let it stay in the past
You keep relivin’ it and replayin’ it in your mind
You're life is gonna be miserable
And life ain't made to be miserable
Life is meant for you to be great Leave that shit behind you and move forward
Lets get it ma nigga

I dont wanna sound mad I feel marvelous
Running through all of these pills like I’m a pharmacist
I told God I don’t wanna be a bother
Just let me know how you leave a four year old fatherless
Chasing a high with my face to the sky
Still wondering why I can't get a reply
Mad that I can't cry mind getting confused
Since he won't say a word to me I figured id just ask you
Wuddup pop ya baby boy is all grown
I can't complain about a thing cause this is all Ive ever known
But sometimes i get jealous seeing kids with they dads
In a few years the same age you was when you passed Sometimes I get sad and sometimes I get mad
Or push my feelings deep down and cover it up with a laugh
I could blame you for every problem that I've ever had
But somewhere inside I know that this was part of god’s path
But still
Where was my dad to teach me how to ride a bike
Where was you at to teach me how to win a fight
I felt alone everyday through the night
Cause i been searching for a father figure all of my life
I had to learn from a woman how to be a man
And she did a great job but some things she couldn't understand
I needed your guidance grab me by the hand for direction
All my life I wanted to ask you this question pop

Leave me alone, leave me alone
Why did you leave me alone
Leave me alone, leave me alone
How could you leave me alone
Leave me alone, leave me alone
Why did you leave me alone
Leave me alone
Every evening i have a by myself meeting

First off, I know you did your best with what you was given
I never held no resentments you already forgiven
From the date of my birth to all them visits in prison
You the reason Im living
Probably the strongest woman
I know
Put me in private school took us out the hood
You was raising me different from you that i understood
Single mother with her own home shit was amazing
But when you relapsed that snatched my security blanket
Now we back in the projects everyday was defeat
I was just becoming a man you was running the street
The pain, the shame, the guilt hurt so deep
And the fact that I couldn't help you hurt so much I couldn't eat
Couldn't sleep didn't know what to do
You went away to rehab and i got high like you
All those nights I just needed my mother
And while you were gone I would sit up and wonder

Leave me alone, leave me alone
Why did you leave me alone
Leave me alone, leave me alone
How could you leave me alone
Leave me alone, leave me alone
Why did you leave me alone

No one to guide me had to find myself
No sisters no brothers grew up by myself
Single mother working I was home by myself
They locked me up threw me in the box by myself
Now i done seen the isolation crush plenty of men
And i done lost so many times you’d think i hated to win
But i adapted to the darkness and i made it my friend
Made an outlet for my aggression and named it NEMS
See me? I rather joke and laugh lighten up the pace
But NEMS? Ain’t with the talking he’ll just punch you in your face
All that anger and insecurity turned into hate
And i gotta to conquer all these demons if i wanna be great
I just be in the crib I don't party with the fake
Industry type mother fuckers that couldn't relate
I might show up late walk inside show my face
Then leave without saying nothing like that’s all i can take
Fuck it

Leave me alone, leave me alone
Could you just leave me alone
Leave me alone, leave me alone
Why can’t you leave me alone
Leave me alone, catch me in the corner not speakin’