Testo Wish I Wasn't Me

I'm drinking from a broken glass
And wishing I could freeze the past
Cuz nothing ever seems to stay the same

I'm tired of the consequense
From using someones innocence
Ambition goes from golden to a plague
And deep to my bones
I fought to find an answer
To wanting more
And constantly turn fake
But if I could escape the words or only redefine them down to whispers
Dear God
Sometimes
I wish I wasn't me
I wish I wasn't me

My love keeps turning red to black
No meaning to keep looking back but sometimes it's so hard to keep the faith

I'm feeling fucking bottomless
I'm cursed with always wanting something else and not be happy where I am
And deep to my bones
I fought to find an answer
To wanting more
And constantly turn fake
But if I could escape the words or only redefine them down to whispers
Dear God
Sometimes
I wish I wasn't me