Testo PTSD

Testo PTSD

Can't find no peace of mind
Can't even sleep if I tried
These demons creep through my mind everyday
I'm paranoid and I’m tired
Can't leave the street shit behind me
This PTSD remind me everyday
Can't find no peace of mind
I seek relief from these highs
The sweet release from what's hiding in my brain, yeah
Feeling like I can't be saved

I'm just trying to run away, yeah
I'm just trying to run away
'Cause I feel like I can't be saved
I feel like I can't be saved
I'm just trying to run away
I'm just trying to run away
'Cause I feel like I can't be saved

Can't find no peace of mind
Can't leave these streets if I tried
No TV screen, this shit live where I stay
Smoke streaming through the sky
Police shooting at toddlers
People freaking when sirens on the way
I tried, I really tried
These kids really be dying
Still you rather scrutinize what I'm saying
You rather focus on a line and twist it to speak these lies
Acting like the fucking 9 on my case
Came up outta trenches, I been keeping that aggression
'Cause there ain't no code of ethics, they just wanna see me go down
Call in crowd control, 'cause every show we do a full house
God made me his vessel, I can't ever sell my soul
Yeah, the real recognise the real, OG's bumping my shit, they feel me
Them labels fight for deals, they know last summer I made a milli
They tryna steal my style, I know your pain don't come from the field
Real pain the type to never heal

I'm just trying to run away, yeah
I'm just trying to run away
'Cause I feel like I can't be saved
I feel like I can't be saved
I'm just trying to run away
I'm just trying to run away
'Cause I feel like I can't be saved

God, I hate being stuck going back to the dirt
Everyday somebody test me for my capital worth
Said they out to catch me lacking, so we catching 'em first
Stomp they ass out on the curb
'Cause they don't learn until they back with the nurse, aye
God, I'm tried to stay out of the violence
I promised I would better myself
Promised momma that I was done, yeah, I said it myself
Suspended sentence above my head, I ain't tryna end up in jail
So I can't trip over this bullshit they be starting over pride
Just to spend 25 in the pen by myself
God I swear these streets could never prevail
But after all I done, I still can't get myself out the field

Can't find no peace of mind
Can't even sleep if I tried
These demons creep through my mind everyday
I'm paranoid and I’m tired
Can't leave the street shit behind me
This PTSD remind me everyday
Can't find no peace of mind
I seek relief from these highs
The sweet release from what's hiding in my brain, yeah
Feeling like I can't be saved
Feeling like I can't be saved

I'm just trying to run away, yeah
I'm just trying to run away
'Cause I feel like I can't be saved
I feel like I can't be saved
I'm just trying to run away
I'm just trying to run away
'Cause I feel like I can't be saved
I feel like I can't be saved
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